So today I'm being more selfish, yes, and I'm admitting it. My thoughts might not be clear right now, I mean, I have really unorganized thoughts right now.

I really HATE being forced to do something or have something I really DON'T want. I don't want to mention specifically on why I am going to say these stuff, and I'm really sorry if you're going to have a bad impression on me feeling like this.

I'm trying to keep myself calm, you know, not getting what I wanted and being told unappreciative, but they're wrong, because they're the ones who are unappreciative, but heck, I don't want to talk about it now.

I've been through a lot, and when I say a lot, I mean a lot. Being in a weird lifestyle, I think I'm a lot more experience than kids my age. And truth is, I hate my lifestyle, but NOT exactly myself, because MYSELF is the one I love most. I hate how my life is and I hate how it will be soon. I am mad at people who are ruining it. Grrrr.

Am I ranting? I don't know.

Is it enough na maawa sa isang tao, then you put it as your reason why you're unhappy? I don't like serious stuff. Basta, that's my issue today. The end.

Okay, I know that what I will tell you will be a little hard to believe.

I was not able to post because of the terrible network connection these past few days because of the rainy season, but no worries, I had this Go Go Gourmet game installed on my computer so I still had the chance to use the computer, just not it's internet capabilities though.

Thank God I'm on level 50 now, I guess it's the final level, but the hard thing is, it's so hard!!! I never thought that this game would be hard at the final stages because it was so easy on the earlier stages, but I guess that's kinda how the games "life cycle" works.

I finished the Hana Kimi Taiwanese Version, and all I could say is, damn! How can things suck at the end of the story!?!?! I was so freakin' disappointed by what I saw! If you want spoilers, here:

They end up NOT telling each other about the fact that they love each other and that Rui Xi (Joey) is a girl and that Quan ( Brian) does now. The ending wanted us to think that they knew it by heart and that they continued their relationship, they even said that "It's our Kind of Love" - Brian. Eeeek.

I am also so pissed off because the DVD of Lucky Star is not working as it should. I really am so disappointed.

That's all. Wish me luck, I just joined the Soul Society Hot Bodies hehe!

Labels: stories

Just a while ago, while strolling at the mall, I decided to arrange Notes and To-do-lists and my Calendar at my Cellular phone, and I noticed, wow! I have a lot of things to finish before school starts!!!

Anyway, my cousins and I went out at Megamall today and watched the Iron Man and ate at the foodcourt, it was uber fun because we were joking about things all the time. I really had a good time today!

I also licensed myself successfully in AuditionPH and am now Level 12! I am sooo happy that I can do it on my own now!!!

I can't blog for too long kasi as I said, I am very busy right now, I can't afford wasting time. Bye.

P.S I am currently working on a Photo Album and will also edit some posts of mine when I acquire photos and other "memorabillias" to enrich my blog posts.

Labels: busy

Knowing me, I completely don't know how to start talking about what happened, I don't even know how to because I really have a lot of weird stories to talk of.But I guess I'll have to say things in a kinda messy way because my mind would probably explode now that I have so much to think about.

First of, I think I should tell you how people were staring at me because of the skimpy swimsuit I was wearing, I was really feeling awkward but what can I do, I'll get scolded If I change back to my shorts and sando, I feel that I should look more decently If I was wearing those. A guy even said hello to me by asking his little brother to talk to me, I think he was probably older than me because he wanted to know if I had an older sibling, the only sibling I had at that time was Achie, I pointed to Achie and I guess he didn't like her so much, hehehehehe! I never really saw his face but the young boy described to me that he was wearing orange glasses, I just had to pretend I saw him and told the boy to tell him I said hello too, I ws in a hurry because I was really excited to try out the beach hehehehe!If you ask me, I think he's somewhere near 15 years old or a little higher than that, because why would he show interest if he was older than that right? ;]

So maybe you got the feeling that I was being a little "feeler" back there but never mind what I said, because it's time for a new story.

I had a nice sleep back there, in fact my routine there was Sleep-Eat-Swim-Eat-Sleep etcetera...etc. ... I missed 2 days of Hana Kimi, dang!!! But what is my DVD doing diba?That;s why I drank lots of caffeine today, but maybe I won't watch Hana Kimi for today.

I also rode the Banana Boat, ALONE, with a couple of strangers with me, but I didn't really care, because they were really kind to me. You know what? I had a really great time back there, although I was scared of the deep sea because I have great fear of big fishes and especially sharks and mythical creatures (e.g Mermaids).

Achie and I also had a tattoo, but it's only of the Henna Tattoo kind, because I don't like it to be sticking along with me forever. I have a really big tattoo, while Achie has only a small one. People stare at my tattoo probably thinking I was a rebel because of how big it is, and maybe they're even thinking that It's permanent because by th looks of my outfits, I think it gives the people the feel that I am a little "brat-tish" which is not true.

We also had a foodtrip, grabe!!!

Aahhhh. I'm too tired of telling everything. But one thing's for sure, I had lots of fun!!!

Labels: Puerto Galera Vacation

I'm going to Puerto Galera tomorrow, or should I say WE are going. Yep, me, mom, dad and Achie, the bad thing here is that Ditchie Dol and Chad aren't going with us. Ditchie has exams while Chad has Chicken Pox, and yes, I know that this trip MIGHT be as boring as ever. If not for it's famous name, I might have preferred to stay home as I know that Achie and I will be having troubles again.

Anyway, I just finished patching my Audition Philippines and It turned out to be a little waste of time because It was "laggy" and disappointing because I personally think that the other modes are better. But what makes the patch worth it for me is the new clothes, mmmmm.... Yummy!!!

So I dressed up my blog now, and I hope it would be staying for atleast a month or two. I also made a personalized layout for myself in Friendster, view my friendster to see it, I feel so accomplished!!!

My Hana Kimi night was good yesterday, I got caught so I had to be extra cautious, I'm having another Hana Kimi night today since tomorrow I won't be able to. I sure will miss doing so...

Anyway, I have to go visit the Soul Society forums, I sure won't want to miss the fun!

~.! Aeyen !.~

Labels: Hana Kimi Night, Night before Puerto Galera

Yesterday, i bought this Hana Kimi DVD at Quiapo, and I'm having regrets and all because it's kinda choppy and sometimes a little blurry, skips some stuff, and you know how bad it is by now xD...But still, watching it last night until midnight made me feel excited to watch more, but I knew I had to sleep because it was past 3 in the morning. The moments are so kilig hayyzz... Is this addiction? But it's really cute!

We were supposed to go to Puerto Galera tomorrow but it was pushed through May 1st, damn! I was so excited!!!! I downloaded truckloads of MP3s in preparation!!! Grrrr!!! (I was exaggerating at the "truckload" part) xD

I went for a checkup, went to St. Luke's today to see an EENT specialist, turns out the one recommended to us was out, so we had to find someone else, we found one with just a dial of a number. He's a sort of a serious doctor but hey, he's not my point of posting, I'll stop blabbing about him now :P SO he told me that I have clogged ears because of wrong "cold disposition method"... Well, he didn't allow me to Dive but he allowed me to swim, but I must NOT reach the ocean floor bottom, but he said I would and I could dive hehehehe!!!

I've been blog hopping, visiting my old blog, I wanted to blog again, looked for hosts but am just too bored to code again for Wordpress, which not to mention, is very hard! Screw Wordpress! I'd really love to try Cutenews but maybe someday, I have MANY plans in mind.

I've also been through Friendster profiles of various old classmates, ex-teachers, people I've met at my previous school and lets put it as, People of my past. Okay, so I sound drama-ish but forgive me, I just miss them but at the same time hating them and seeking revenge. Should I talk about the past now? Well, I have 22 minutes remaining before I plug in my DVD and watch Hana Kimi.... But I've decided not to for now, I don't want to come back to my old life, after all, the whole reason why I want to go to a new school is because I want a new life.And together with it, I am expecting a personality change from me.

I've been to rebelling, 'been to ruining my grades, I've been through cutting my own skin, now what? Of course, I want to make my life better, like what I've promised. But how can I begin with the feeling that no one believes that I can, that everyone will have to dig my past to remind me how bad I spent a year or two....

I want to make sense of what I am supposed to be and somehow make people respect me for who I currently am not for what I was and maybe, what I could become.I feel that, sometimes people have to be terribly hurt just for them to realize how many wrongs they could have done and the better, or maybe the best things they could have done instead. I know how it feels to feel completely different from the crowd just because of your problems.

I guess I'm a girl filled not only with joy but revenge and jealousy... I'm not the typical girl, but I can't say that I should stand out from the crowd. Honestly, in everyday of my life, I get puzzled on how to continue my existence with all my problems, but I believe that my day will come.

OMG! That's enough drama. Let me fix my layout now.

~.! AeyeN !.~

Labels: Hana Kimi Night

I'm Gilliene, this is a private
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